I'm not ready to say good bye

While this blog is mainly about being a mom to my son. I write this post nearing the end of my mom's life. She was a confident strong minded woman who was also caring and nurturing when we were children.  As we grew up, like her, I became a confident strong minded woman and the problem with this is we often butted heads and a small rift between us grew bigger and bigger until our relationship was torn apart and we didn't speak for 8 long years. We were both stubborn and stupid.  I miss and regret those 8 years without her.  Why couldn't we agree to disagree.  Now I've been a mom for the past three years and I need her.  She is in hospice care and not expected to live much longer.  I have a flight to see her a week from Saturday and we were told, she may not be here when that visit comes to pass.  I'm not ready for this just yet...